June 26, 2017

I want the rain to forever pour down and gulp me up until I’m wet, so wet, I would weigh five times heavier, and I’d be sucked down and hugged by the cold soft soil; I would daydream in it, careless about time and people and everything else, and dear God I promise I would be the happiest thing alive.

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Today was raining lots and lots I almost wished I could play in the wet damp earth, getting myself soaked from head to toe. Just thinking of it relieved some stress I guess, and of course I forgot to bring back my umbrella from school. Mom was so upset.

I hadn’t eaten anything today – again. I’ve been starving myself for so long I can’t even differentiate hunger from nausea anymore. I hope I don’t sound too creepy. The upcoming exams would have everything to do with my loss of appetite.

 

6:55 PM